Do You Feel My Pain. . .

Do you ever get that feeling in your throat. . .where you feel like your going to throw up?

Well that's the feeling that I currently have, and get every single night.

No one understands the way I feel, the way I act, or how I view the world. I feel like I completely have lost contact or, the basic communication skills with people. Not with all people but I have come to feel that way with most. I can only trust certain people now, with my thoughts, feelings, and life. The one person that I felt as if I could trust, and confide in has broken all trust, this person has been the reason as to why I wake up in the middle of the night wanting to cry, or just clinch the sheets.

This summer I have seen their true colors, and have gotten the opportunity to see them for who they really are. I can no longer be this person's friend and, act as if we can work through the things that have happened out and fix our relationship, I feel like there is NOTHING that can or will be fixed. I look at them and see nothing, I can never trust them again. . .This person doesn't know exactly how I feel about this situation, but they will soon know that this is not how I plan carrying on with our relationship, and I refuse to have a person in my life who just blatantly walks all over me, and isn't a good person. As much as they say they are a good person, and put on a act for the world, I know the truth. . .and in the end EVERY ONES true colors come out.

I'm not saying I'm perfect, I happen to be the complete opposite but, I want to change, not only for me, but for the people I love, I want others to view me as a; fun, inspiring, cheerful, brillant person.

I'm done.

Goodnight & Good luck.

-CoCoMcKenna